My super-power is anxiety, coupled with panic and paranoia. Wonderful combination of emotions and thoughts and just stuff. Meh! I find myself wanting to cower in a corner and hide from the world - instead I am working and not doing a particularly good job. I want to cry and sob and let it all… Continue reading My super-power has asserted itself again
Tag: self
Dating again
I am dating again. I am finding it interesting, exciting and a bit of a minefield. You see, I am not dating someone new, I am dating my primary partner. The person I spend some time with every single day. (For those who have missed it, I am in multiple relationships (well I try!) and… Continue reading Dating again
Hurt
I try and live my life as openly as I can and still remain true to the woman (and girl) I know is inside. Today is hard emotionally and mentally. I feel like I have slid down the rabbit hole and I have yet to hit bottom. It is as though I have been thrown… Continue reading Hurt
Tap out
Ever wanted just to tap out? Just to say, "that's it, I've seen enough, experienced enough, I'm done." I tried that once. Didn't stick. Some days I am thankful that it didn't and other days I am not. Today is one of the latter days. I am tired of everything, just absolutely everything. My words… Continue reading Tap out
What do you want?
A provocative question. I was watching some sort of irrelevant ad and this came up. The premise is that as kids we know what we want to be, what we want to own and there is little room for doubt. This changes as we age and become more aware of societal mores, desires of our… Continue reading What do you want?
3-word challenge
I followed another blog to this one (https://brianlageose.blog/2018/03/23/writer-to-writer-the-3-word-challenge-2/) and got my 3-word challenge. The result is below. Following people on WordPress creates it's own adventures and this one was well worth it. Why are some days just harder than others? Considering life is very much work, eat, sleep with the odd variation, e.g. date, dance… Continue reading 3-word challenge
#metoo, #generalstateofaffairs, #hashtag!
Hashtags, love them, hate them, feel generally ambivalent. Personally, I just find it another way for people to distance themselves while appearing to be a part of something. It's great having this social voice, but for most of us, that is all it is. An imprint on the internet and no actual involvement. When push… Continue reading #metoo, #generalstateofaffairs, #hashtag!
Blah blah and blah
Exactly how I feel right now. Everything is just blah, blah and blah ... entering in and exiting with no retention. Motivation levels are almost zero and I wonder how I am going to kick-start this whole necessity to lose weight (I really am scared of needles and do not wish to have to prick… Continue reading Blah blah and blah
New year, weight loss and all of that stuff
Excerpt: 2018 🙂
Not feeling myself
I am writing this post, knowing that people will read it and panic, so I am telling you DO NOT PANIC!! (I need the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy about now). I am working through my feelings, emotions and the general noise that is in my head. In December of 2014, I attempted suicide. It… Continue reading Not feeling myself
Neuroses Undefined 