That crept up on me like a ton of bricks. I mean I have been prepared, kinda. The number doesn't worry me too much - it's the reflection that is going along with it. The feeling that I just don't matter and nothing I have done to this point matters. And why the fuck am I so discontent? I… Continue reading Oh hell I’m 50
Tag: relationships
Not hiding
For a long time on here I have kept my name and my photo private. As I write this, I have finally updated those settings. I am proud of my words and stand by them, so my face here should not be an issue. What is going to be funny is that I will get… Continue reading Not hiding
Love
I stumbled across this:"Every relationship will get "boring" after you've been together for years. Love isn't a feeling, it's a commitment to love every day, physically and emotionally. It's difficult, it's not always laughs, smiles and fun. People tend to quit when it stops being fun, and they go look for someone else because the… Continue reading Love
Being “Mom/Mum/Mother”
"We need to talk about Kevin" by Lionel Shriver is one of the most confronting books I have read in a long time. I stumbled across this courtesy of my daughter and I read it in one sitting. Gripping stuff. I am not going to wax lyrical about how easy it is for mass shootings… Continue reading Being “Mom/Mum/Mother”
Being at peace
Quick note, I am working on a post a day. So please be patient with me 🙂 As you are all aware, R and I are poly. Now many people do not understand this, and generally take it down to the common denominator which is that we have an open relationship. This is true with… Continue reading Being at peace
Friendship, relationship and work
I am starting to realise how close to burn out I am. It is scary. I have had to take a few steps back of late, and in the process of deliberately slowing down, I have seen how close total shut down is. I suppose there is only so far I can delude myself into… Continue reading Friendship, relationship and work
Mind dump
You ever get to that point where you have so much crap running around in your head, that you have to just dump it? I am writing regularly-ish at the moment, and still my head is full up. I always thought I was good at communication, or at least clear enough about my intentions and… Continue reading Mind dump
It’s always been official
Just that now it can be public knowledge. I never thought I would be writing this. So much has led up to this moment, and for every single mountain, molehill and bump in the road I am grateful. Every tear that was shed, every tear in my heart and soul led me to here and… Continue reading It’s always been official
A little time apart
So we are having a little break. Wait! wait! oh ffs! WAIT!! It's not like that at all. We are having a little break because the public transport system is screwy for the next 3 weeks and in order to ensure I stay healthy and stable, I am in the city while Mr is at… Continue reading A little time apart
That was unexpected
It is interesting how some things creep up on you and bite. Those little critters should have been dealt with ages ago, they don't belong here in the present. That was your past and that has been handled. Well, so you thought. I have been "single" for close to 7 years now. Yes, I have… Continue reading That was unexpected
Neuroses Undefined 