As a mother, I can attest that a child is both magical and heart rending. From the moment you know you have a life inside you, the weight of every choice, every decision is on your mind. You look at life with new perspective and second guess yourself constantly. Those baby years, before school. Where… Continue reading Heartache
Tag: life is messy
“Extras”
For those following, thank you for the patience during our interrupted broadcast. I am on the mend, and life is feeling better. I read somewhere that we feel like everyone else is an extra in the feature film that is our life. We don't appreciate or sense that they probably feel the same way about… Continue reading “Extras”
So what’s positive about depression
It is easy to get stuck in the spiral that is depression. Hell, I am still working my way out of this particular hole. The days are both long and short and fraught with the feeling of being overwhelmed. I am cracking and breaking and still I take on more and more to find some… Continue reading So what’s positive about depression
Finding acceptance
I had a breakdown - a very private, very quiet breakdown - and it has taken time off from work, and a lot of reflecting to realise that it did happen. Usually R would be the first to know, and I know he will read this, but this time I have kept it quiet. The… Continue reading Finding acceptance
2020 keeps on taking
It has been a roller coaster of a year. Seriously this is going down as one of the strangest and uncomfortable year of my life - unless 2021 wants to see if it can best 2020. Let's do a little recap until we get to the last few days... January in Australia was like no… Continue reading 2020 keeps on taking
Blah, blah, blah
I wonder when I became this blathering, bitter, twisted person? Ok, that is a little harsh, but it certainly feels that way. I can't seem to find peace in my head and everything I do seems mired in some sort of bog. No fucking forward movement. Of course this means I need to dissect EVERYTHING.… Continue reading Blah, blah, blah
F is for family – or so I’m told
It has been quiet around here for a while, and then suddenly all hell broke loose. It hasn't been exactly sunshine and roses in this house, more like storms and thorns, but this weekend proved to be the cherry on the cake. Thursday was not a good night. R and I ended up arguing again… Continue reading F is for family – or so I’m told
Balance
It is easy to lose balance when work and life each have demands that take up a lot of time and energy. It takes you to a point where a light push of wind in either direction will mean you fall and fall far. At the moment, my internal resources are pushed to the limit… Continue reading Balance
It’s not easy
When we choose, and note I use the word choose, to live a life that is not the same as our upbringing, that is not the same as what society deems as normal, we choose a path less travelled, actually it is usually all new territory. It is not easy when you do not have… Continue reading It’s not easy
Superhero
Excerpt:
I am my own superhero.
