There is this prompt that does the rounds that tells you to blog using the alphabet as your guide. Each letter becomes a blog. I decided that as a challenge, this would be good to get me blogging every day.
Great enthusiasm and energy … what I wouldn’t do for a little of that! I don’t need great, I just need enough. I am grateful for a partner who bitches when I am working too much and taking too much on, but when the shit hits the fan, stands with me and allows me to get things done.
Still I am tired of the bullshit and the pettiness and the distraction. I want to get things done and have some energy left to do what I like. I want to craft, be intimate, play with the puppy and go for a walk. I want to feel like I have more energy than just what I need to get through a working day.
Don’t get me wrong. I love my job. It is just currently sucking air when I already feel depleted.
Possibly a weekend away on my own is required. Something to discuss with R. He can drop me off and collect me with enough for me to do and close enough for walks. Just some quiet time.