There is this prompt that does the rounds that tells you to blog using the alphabet as your guide. Each letter becomes a blog. I decided that as a challenge, this would be good to get me blogging every day.
V = vary
To change, to cause something to change.
Bring on menopause in all its glory. I have gone from being relatively mild-mannered to a screaming banshee. I absolutely hate myself when it happens and no matter how much I say I won’t behave in a certain manner, it happens anyway.
I have this sensation of standing outside my body and watching myself lose my shit in the most unflattering of ways. I am lashing out, hurting and causing unending pain.
I loathe myself. All I want to do is hide and fade into the background, never to be seen again.
This has naturally caused much grief between R and I. I feel like the world’s worst person and he is trying to be understanding.
Currently it is all fucked.
Neuroses Undefined 