There is this prompt that does the rounds that tells you to blog using the alphabet as your guide. Each letter becomes a blog. I decided that as a challenge, this would be good to get me blogging every day.
A = Attitude
I had another word in mind when I started this, but as I thought about it, attitude sums up best what is in my head.
This year has been about my attitude and how I approach things. I have said that it needs to be about what I can’t have – I need to be grateful for the things I do not get, or cannot access. What I did not realise is that I would be tested on this.
Stupid really. If I am going to throw out a challenge to the universe, then I better expect it to bite me in the arse. It is not so much about denial, because we are all denied things and we survive. This is about not getting something you desire and learning to be grateful around that.
Maybe it’s more than just desire. It is like having this need and you know it will fulfil you, but you cannot have it. I am learning to be grateful for not having it. Whatever the lesson is, and trust me I am so far from seeing the end goal, it will all be worth it in the end.
One step at a time. Today I will be grateful for every breath I take and the fact that I have so much already. For that which I do not have, I will find gratitude today and peace. It is not mine, I need to leave it alone.
Neuroses Undefined 