Mild mental illnesses that are indefinite in form, yet still maintaining some semblance of reality.
I went in search of a word for 2024, expecting it to be something along the lines of "brave", "success", "strive", and so forth. You get the idea, it was all about the new challenges and moving further up and achieving more of my goals. I used a random generator and the first word did not… Continue reading 2024 Balance
That crept up on me like a ton of bricks. I mean I have been prepared, kinda. The number doesn't worry me too much - it's the reflection that is going along with it. The feeling that I just don't matter and nothing I have done to this point matters. And why the fuck am I so discontent? I… Continue reading Oh hell I’m 50
I am ignoring the fiasco that is playing out on my social media... there is only so much election frenzy I can handle and America you have delivered and continue to do so. Please slow down and let things unfold as they should. I try not be political, but seriously you cannot want him back… Continue reading Watching the world implode
Really, truly, honestly. I am beyond tired, and this is just exacerbating all my negative emotions. It's fairy tale Friday and right now the only fairy tale I want looks something like this: A good nights sleep and wake up naturally without the scream of the alarm in my ear. That scream that jolts me… Continue reading I’m so done
Sometimes it is good to remember that life is not bad. So photos from the last 2 weeks that shows life is great! Curve balls be damned! He loves me 🙂 Terrarium making 🙂 Just an awesome hobby
Life is constantly full of surprises. I no sooner think that I have something covered, then I am thrown a curve ball. In this particular case it is a slow moving curve ball - I have yet to see if I will hit or miss. My emotions are everywhere but stable today. I am working… Continue reading Ah, just when I thought…
I was collected from work in pouring rain. He dealt with crappy traffic ... okay horrendous traffic since everyone forgets how to drive when there is water falling from the sky! A cup of tea (I'm seriously addicted to my cup of tea - I'll think about getting therapy ... not.) made *with love* and… Continue reading Coming home
This is a thing we do at work. We have lessons learned sessions after sales wins and losses, implementations and go-lives. We try and learn what we did well and can replicate, and what we did not do so well and change. We don't always learn from the lessons learned exercise, but it is becoming… Continue reading Lessons learned
The last few months have been a blur of work. Not so much activity in respect of doing a bunch of things, but just work. It feels like I am breathing, eating and sleeping work. Then I went and lined up 5 days of training over 6. There is a lot of preparation to do… Continue reading Preparation, realisation and acceptance
I don't know how to be married. How is that for a strong opening line? Honestly though, I don't know how to be married. When I think of marriage, I am constantly reminded of the first one. That was easy in hindsight and I will explain. In my first marriage, we had all the conventional… Continue reading Marriage
Neuroses Undefined 